A Warning Sign

A warning sign 
I missed the good part then I realised 
That I started looking and the bubble burst 
I started looking for excuses 
Come on in, I've got to tell you what a state I'm in 
I've got to tell you in my loudest tones 
That I started looking for a warning sign 

When the truth is 
I miss you 
Yeah the truth is 
That I miss you so 

A warning sign 
You came back to haunt me and I realised 
That you were an island and I passed you by 
When you were an island to discover 
Come on in, I've got to tell you what a state I'm in 
I've got to tell you in my loudest tones 
That I started looking for a warning sign 

And the truth is 
I miss you 
Yeah the truth is 
I miss you so 
And I'm tired 
I should not have let you go 

So I crawl back into your open arms 
Yes I crawl back into your open arms 
And I crawl back into your open arms 
Yes I crawl back into your open arms

-A Warning Sign
Coldplay

Photobooth

I remember when the days were long,
And the nights when the living room was on the lawn.
Constant quarreling, the childish fits, and our clothes in a pile on the ottoman.
All the slander and double-speak 
Were only foolish attempts to show you did not mean
Anything but the blatant proof was your lips touching mine in the photobooth.

And as the summer's ending, 
The cool air will put your hard heart away.
You were so condescending..
And this is all that's left:
Scraping paper to document.
I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on.

Cup your mouth to compress the sound,
Skinny dipping with the kids from a nearby town.
And everything that I said was true,
As the flashes blinded us in the photobooth.
Well, I lost track, and then those words were said.
You took the wheel and you steered us into my bed.
Soon we woke and I walked you home,
And it was pretty clear that it was hardly love.

And as the summer's ending, 
The cool air will rush your hard heart away.
You were so condescending.
And this is all that's left:
Scraping paper to document.
I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on.

And as the summer's ending,
The cool air will rush your hard heart away.
You were so condescending,
As the alcohol drained the days.

And as the summer's ending,
The cool air will rush your hard heart away.
You were so condescending.
And this is all that's left:
The empty bottles, spent cigarettes.
So pack a change of clothes, 'cause it's time to move on. 


-Photobooth
Death Cab For Cutie

Captivated

When I look into the mountains
I see Your fame
When I look into the night's sky
It sparkles Your name

The wind and the clouds and the blue in the sky
The sun and the moon and the stars so high
That's what draws me to You

I am, I'm captivated by You
In all that You do
I am, I'm captivated

When I wake unto the morning
It gives me Your sight
When I look across the ocean
It echoes Your might

The sand on the shore and the waves in the sea
The air in my lungs and the way You made me
That's what draws me to You

I am, I'm captivated by You
In all that You do
I am, I'm captivated

'Cause I am, I'm captivated by You
In all that You do
I am, I'm captivated

The wind and the clouds and the blue in the sky
The sun and the moon and the stars so high
The sand on the shore and the waves in the sea
The air in my lungs and the way You made me

The blood in my veins and my heart You invade
The plants how they grow and the trees and their shade
The way that I feel and love in my soul
I thank you my God for letting me, letting me know

I am, I'm captivated by You
In all that You do
I am, I'm captivated

'Cause I am, I'm captivated by You
In all that You do
I am, I'm captivated


Shawn McDonald
Captivated

The choice to be at rest

So, without going into a whole lot of detail, I have come to the conclusion that the person I was a year ago is gone, and the person I was two years ago is completely and utterly unrecognizable to the person I am today. I still like the some of the same music and yet, I have found new music that speaks to me just as clearly. I love 400 thread count sateen sheets and a soft mattress- something I found out after not having my own bed or my own place to live for a year and a half. I ache for a life I thought I wanted, but I'm slowly realizing that where I am now is without a shadow of a doubt where I am supposed to be. And I now understand that the depth of my anger is far greater than I was willing to accept, but after talking and seeing people from my past, I realize I am dealing with it in a far different manner than I could be. The mere fact that I am identifying the anger and coming to terms with it sets me apart from the people in my past. It grieves me incredibly to see the way their anger has eaten them up and overtaken them. Please don't think I'm trying to sound better than they are. That is not the point of this. The point is, I have struggled to see whether healthy emotional progress has been made in my life and I haven't seen it. I have difficulty being objective in my own life. But after a few encounters in the past couple of weeks, I see I have changed. I see that the journey toward healthy living is slowly emerging. I see that the steps I am taking now are moving me closer to relationship with Jesus and I see that that change could not have come about without complete and utter surrender to the Holy Spirit and his actions in my life.

Am I still broken? Yes, of course. Am I still in pain? Yes, of course. And yet, the answers I have looked for my whole life are finally becoming clear. Trust- true trust is beginning to flow through my body. Mercy and grace are becoming ways and acts of life. Acceptance of myself and others is beginning to flow out of my words and actions. I'm no longer scrambling to pick up the pieces of life, because I have the assured faith that Christ is at the center of all of the pieces and fully capable of putting all of them together in exactly the way they need to be put together. I don't have to try so hard to do what I'm not meant to. I can rest in his grace, mercy and forgiveness. And after the last two years of my life where complete and profane chaos has reigned, the idea of rest soothes my soul and calms my anxious, weary heart.

So now... the next step in finding answers... to rest in His holy, unchanging steadfastness, to build a heart of love and compassion. To be able to stop striving to be what I'm not and allow God to work in the ways he still needs to. And be at rest.

Mighty to Save

Everyone needs compassion,
Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.

Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour;
The Hope of nations.

Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.

Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.

I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave. 

Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave. 

My Saviour, you can move the mountains,
You are mighty to save,
You are mighty to save.
Forever, Author of Salvation,
You rose and conquered the grave,
Yes you conquered the grave

-Laura Story