Diapers, wipes, cheerios, oh my!

I'm not sure when my life became about diapers and play groups and which baby puffs are the best, but it's like I've become a mother overnight, without any of the trepidation or anxiety of looking forward to a new birth. I love my job- don't get me wrong, but this new life of mine is one I find myself musing about quite a bit. I mean, I look after another woman's children for a living, knowing full well that they could be mine. I'm of the correct age, the "proper" place in my life for that sort of thing and yet, they aren't mine. And the more and more I've thought about it, I'm okay with it. I did expect to be in this place at this point in my life, but I'm not. So... again, I see that the reality that life actually gives us from the choices we actually make, is a lot different than the "reality" we thought we would make in the life we were given. So... for now, I explore diapers.com with enthusiasm, feed the psycho little dog her pills with cheese and fold little people's laundry, knowing that some day, the choices I make in these days will bring about a different "reality" than I now experience.